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Friday, 05 September 2008

Saturday, 16 August 2008

  • I knew coming back to school would be different after being away for a semester abroad and the summer, but I guess I didn't realize how different or how those differences would affect me.  Maybe part of the problem is that my role is different being an upperclassman and on leadership teams this year - which is adding a great deal of stress.  But friends just don't seem the same, or I just don't find myself as excited to see them or hangout with them.  Honestly, I'm not enjoying being back all that much, though it was great to see people, because the stress and awkwardness and the confusion of what I think and what I want to do and believe - it all just has me scrambled.  Maybe it was a mistake to leave for an entire semester, maybe it's foolish to be on multiple leadership teams, maybe I was crazy to think that I would be able to transition well back here.  There's just too much going on.

Tuesday, 29 July 2008

  • I'm frustrated.  Just when I think I have some control in my life, there is some long period of alone time and a computer.  What an epic fail.  Seriously though, this is my last week of summer camp, and I can't focus on my kids and staff?  These are the last couple days I'll be spending with them.  It honestly makes me feel rather selfish for thinking of myself before them, and before what God would have me do. Lame.

    This has been one of those summers where there have been good times and bad times, plenty of time to catch up on reading, but there have been questions raised that I haven't had time to answer and problems like this that I haven't taken time to sit down and fix because I've been busy getting things ready for camp or hanging out with the staff.

     

    Maybe once camp is over I just need to take a day or two to sit down and figure some things out.

Saturday, 19 July 2008

  • Life throws you curve balls.  I can't say how many times I've gotten to a point like this.  A place where all my thoughts are jumbled and all my emotions mixed up.  Except this time it seems to be deeper, more serious. 

    Maybe it's just that this time I realize that I have to start making decisions, and that these decisions are going to have potenially a big effect on my life and possibly the lives of those around me. 

    I feel like I'm flip-flopping on so many choices, feelings and thoughts.  Somedays my religion makes sense, others I feel like I'm even moving in the right direction, and others I can barely understand why I even keep trying,  I like my friends, but at times I can't stand them, or just don't want to spend time with them.  My confidence leaps around, sometimes I could care less what others thought about me, others I nearly fall apart if I get criticism.  It's so ridiculous.

     

Sunday, 08 June 2008

  • So apparently I'm not supposed to write about what's going on in my life.

    I tried writing a letter and facebook was all "FAIL" and pulled up the error page and didn't let me post.

    There was alot of thought and emotion in it, I can't recreate that.  I guess I'll have to wait until inspiration hits.

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  • I'm a pretty laid back guy most of the time. My friends and family are wicked important to me, as is my faith. I'm a Christ follower, not to say that I don't have my fair share of doubts and trials.

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